Tuesday, January 25, 2011

My January so far...

Here are a few things I've been into this month. Florence and the Machine are so unique sounding and fun to listen to. Ryder loves to hear it too, and see the weird videos. I love Netflix, especially the TV shows I have access to that are no longer around, plus lots of great kids' shows and movies for Ryder. I don't know how I never heard of Rilo Kiley before, but again I really love, especially Silver Lining. :) I'm loving reading about the history of Disneyland in the Disneyland Encylopedia, and have gotten great ideas and tips from the Unofficial Guide. I'm cramming for a test I know I'll have to take once there. ;) I know this is all about some new loves of mine, but I heart the Killers and always have. Now I really heart Brandon Flowers and appreciate his voice even more with his solo stuff. And I bought Paul the book "127 hours Between a Rock and a Hard Place" thinking he'd really like it, and he hasn't read any yet, so I've been reading it, and it's very interesting. It's definitely stranger than fiction to me. But I'm liking it.
This month has flown by, and I've enjoyed the chances I've gotten to read and listen to music especially. Ryder is learning and growing at lightning speed and all I'm doing is trying to keep up with him. He was really sick all weekend and now has antibiotics and is doing better, but we've all been lacking sleep. I'm hoping we can catch up quick. I'm also trying to get everything in order for our upcoming trips and not go too crazy. Next week will be super nuts though, so I'm trying to take it easy until then. Missouri weather has been extremely wonderful, and the best winter I think I've ever had as far as that goes. It's so mild down here, and has only snowed twice, and it melts very quickly. Which is great, because any amount of snow or ice and no one goes anywhere since the roads are bad (which in Iowa's terms is maybe normal) so the clear roads have been wonderful because it makes Paul's commutes safe.
Well, that's all I can think of, but I hope the remainder of January is wonderful for you all!
(Oh, and sorry for the double pics of the book, it's the same book, different covers and I couldn't get rid of one of them.)

Monday, January 10, 2011

A new year

Or is it? It doesn't really seem so new to me, or maybe I'm just not ready to be in a new one or ready to acknowledge it. It's so weird anyway. I remember distinctly being so overwhelmingly pregnant with Ryder 2 years ago--praying he would come in December, then finally getting there 11 days into January. I can't believe my boy is so big! When people would say "they grow so fast" I just thought that was something you said once you had kids. I didn't really believe it. But I find myself wishing the days would last just a little longer, that the weeks wouldn't just be gone. I picture myself sitting at his high school graduation too easily. I know that seems so far off, but I literally feel the days pulling away from me. It's like the more I want more, the less they stick around. I try to enjoy every day, though, just bask in the point in time Ryder's experiencing now. I love that he's grown in so many ways, and am so proud he's just as smart as Daddy, and beyond eager to learn. I think of how it was to hold him for the first time, see him sit up, crawl, walk, run, and do everything inbetween for the first time and I never knew love like this before. I don't know what I would do with out him in my life.

Ryder is my angel, my life, my love, my miracle, my son, and most importantly mine. Paul and I are overwhelmed each day that he's really here in our lives. We feel like one day we'll wake up and it will all have been a dream. He's amazing....and crazy, busy, persistent, determined, stubborn, dramatic, and I love every bit of him. He's so handsome, too, so I could just stare at him all day. I can't believe he's my boy!

I love you beyond words!! Happy birthday in exactly 14 hours!!