Monday, April 26, 2010
What to say, what to say? Lately I've been feeling kind of blah. Just unmotivated, tired, and lethargic. These things could all be due to the fact that I have a rambunctious, crazy wild, go-er for a child who drains all my energy. But part of me thinks that it's something else entirely... You see, I have all these things that run through my mind all the time; little things, big things, it doesn't matter, because the point is they're there. I'll stay up late one night and it will come to me. I'll be taking a shower or going for a walk, and it creeps into a corner of my mind. At times I'll brush it off, and at other times I'll think that I'll remember later and write it down at that time. But the time never comes that I do. And I wait. And I hope it will come back to me. Anyway, the point is that I have this creative juice flowing inside of me at times, and I need to do something about it. And here is the beginning point of this journey. Because I've decided it's about doing things now, the things you want to and not having to look back and regret blowing it all off. I think my lack of energy is coming from my not releasing this creative energy that's already circulating through my veins, but has not yet had a release, a heart to pump to, if you will. Here is to my new experiment--I'm letting go of all my fears regarding this thing, and moving forward. I'm going to climb my Everest, however long it takes. Wish me luck, because I will need it.